tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-288814485206051102012-02-16T18:59:53.920-08:00Nikhilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03081257885961079080noreply@blogger.comBlogger21100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-28881448520605110.post-38260347249119308612008-06-07T02:56:00.000-07:002008-06-07T03:13:23.291-07:00Well its been a long time since i made a post. Almost 1 month. And i have my reasons. First the stupid end semester exams(they really suck your blood out) and then i went to a trip with my friends to Kasauli, which is probably the most boring town in all of north India. So here i am, back with myself!<br /><br />I enrolled for a test series for CAT at another institute today. I don't know why I'm doing this. All i really wanted was a break after the exams and that 'break' seems so far away. Everybody is constantly running in this huge rat race( and a lot of them trying to trip others rather than run faster themselves).<br /><br />I thought a lot about my thoughts earlier. Comments of people helped me shape an opinion. I now think that I think too much. I mean to think of it, there isn't much to think. I know I'm not going anywhere. Well the effect of thinking too much - Tension. So now i'm thinking.......ZAP! I'm not thinking. Not anymore. Yes I am confused. But what the hell?<br /><br />We had this huge party recently...at a friends place. We made a sort of 'Long Island Iced Tea' cocktail in a bucket!!! It is the best drink i've ever tasted. A lot of crazy stuff happened that night.<br /><br />Now 4th year awaits..... Mixed emotions. Tension/anxiety/glad/happy/sad. I just hope this turns out to be a better cocktail than the one i had....But then again....still dazed &amp; confused!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/28881448520605110-3826034724911930861?l=dreamsaredead.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Nikhilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03081257885961079080noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-28881448520605110.post-84973303875874887332008-04-27T15:03:00.000-07:002008-04-27T15:28:47.309-07:00Well your exams start in 10 days and what do you do all the time?? You listen to music, read random stuff on the net and watch 10 episodes of a hit sitcom in a row!! Well thats me. Its almost 4 am. Yet i can't sleep............<br /><br />All day long i keep hearing about 'you know that guy...he's an i-banker' or like 'X is doing pretty well these days, drawing a package of so &amp; so'. And it makes me think.... What do we really want from life....????<br /><br />I know people say happiness and all....But is it?? If it is, then how come we spend so less time(if any) towards it? I mean everyday you hear people trying to break into the world of finance, get top jobs like investment banking and consulting. But do they really want to do that??<br /><br />I know loads of people claiming that they've got interest in finance. Bulls**t. Not even one of them has any interest in it. All they're interested in is money. Money is good...but is it worth sabotaging your innermost dreams and desires for it?<br /><br />I know I'm asking a lot of stupid questions...But i can't seem to find an answer. People reading this might say that 'No we have genuine interest blah blah blah', but i believe those people don't really know themselves as they don't really delve into their innermost desires.......I don't think those people can judge my blog.<br /><br />Do you really know yourself? Or do you <span style="font-style: italic;">think</span> that you know yourself?? There's a world of difference. All my life I thought i knew myself... Now when I'm at crossroads, I'm perplexed. I think 'do i wanna get into an IT job?' or 'do i wanna do an MBA'? or 'do i wanna do anything'??<br />Nothing seems to make sense. I can't seem to find the path....the path where i just work and work and work...and yet i feel i didn't work at all. I want to find that passion......Something i'm passionate about.... And work on it.....Cause then it doesn't seem like work...it seems like fun.....The burning flame.....<br /><br />I don't know what i want to do.... Cause its not just dollars and cents for me. What i really want...what i really care about....is a golden word.....'SATISFACTION'......Whether i get that sweating on a shopfloor...or whether i get that sitting in a cubicle....Beats me!!!!<br /><br />I had a talk with my friend the other day and he said all this crap gets you nowhere....But do i wanna go anywhere??? Or i just want to lay back...relax and gaze at the stars....<br /><br />Anyway, I'm totally confused. And guess what i concluded? Deep down inside....We all want to follow our passions.... Just need some nuts.....And of course... A PASSION!!! The burning flame.......<br /><br />Till then i guess.....'I got a place where all my dreams are dead'<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/28881448520605110-8497330387587488733?l=dreamsaredead.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Nikhilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03081257885961079080noreply@blogger.com7