Well your exams start in 10 days and what do you do all the time?? You listen to music, read random stuff on the net and watch 10 episodes of a hit sitcom in a row!! Well thats me. Its almost 4 am. Yet i can't sleep............
All day long i keep hearing about 'you know that guy...he's an i-banker' or like 'X is doing pretty well these days, drawing a package of so & so'. And it makes me think.... What do we really want from life....????
I know people say happiness and all....But is it?? If it is, then how come we spend so less time(if any) towards it? I mean everyday you hear people trying to break into the world of finance, get top jobs like investment banking and consulting. But do they really want to do that??
I know loads of people claiming that they've got interest in finance. Bulls**t. Not even one of them has any interest in it. All they're interested in is money. Money is good...but is it worth sabotaging your innermost dreams and desires for it?
I know I'm asking a lot of stupid questions...But i can't seem to find an answer. People reading this might say that 'No we have genuine interest blah blah blah', but i believe those people don't really know themselves as they don't really delve into their innermost desires.......I don't think those people can judge my blog.
Do you really know yourself? Or do you think that you know yourself?? There's a world of difference. All my life I thought i knew myself... Now when I'm at crossroads, I'm perplexed. I think 'do i wanna get into an IT job?' or 'do i wanna do an MBA'? or 'do i wanna do anything'??
Nothing seems to make sense. I can't seem to find the path....the path where i just work and work and work...and yet i feel i didn't work at all. I want to find that passion......Something i'm passionate about.... And work on it.....Cause then it doesn't seem like work...it seems like fun.....The burning flame.....
I don't know what i want to do.... Cause its not just dollars and cents for me. What i really want...what i really care about....is a golden word.....'SATISFACTION'......Whether i get that sweating on a shopfloor...or whether i get that sitting in a cubicle....Beats me!!!!
I had a talk with my friend the other day and he said all this crap gets you nowhere....But do i wanna go anywhere??? Or i just want to lay back...relax and gaze at the stars....
Anyway, I'm totally confused. And guess what i concluded? Deep down inside....We all want to follow our passions.... Just need some nuts.....And of course... A PASSION!!! The burning flame.......
Till then i guess.....'I got a place where all my dreams are dead'
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that's life buddy.. Dnt think too much live for the moment and live it not to regret it.
As it is said.. Dont take life too seriously u cannot come out of it alive!
Njoi every bit of it.
Yaar, on 1 hand you have a sense of what true satisfaction may be... And on the other hand, you are unnecessarily putting peer pressure on yourself...
I think, a step towards satisfaction is probably, truly understanding yourself (as you rightly said) AND not being affected too much by others...
For all you know, someone might actually wanna be an I-Banker... Who cares...? As long as YOU know you don't wanna become an I-Banker and realise that you would NOT make attempts to be an I-Banker, I think you are safe... Its when you give into the peer pressure and start getting worked up about something that is not really where your interest (NOT necessarily passion, coz it is too big, and correspondingly too rare, a word) lies...
I guess, thinking up the career seems to be a big problem with us guys... Went through a similar phase (probably past it now) a few weeks ago...
P.S. Someone like Chetan Bhagat, knowing that his passion won't pay up his bills, probably follows his interest (I-Banking) and pursues his passion (writing) as a passtime...
Summary: While deciding what you want to be, take the money out of the equation (if you choose to do an MBA,i.e., coz that pays enough for your survival) and think more in terms of interest... and also MBA and IT, different? Most MBAs lead to the same road... IT, I guess...
Seem to have rambled too much...
Btw, nice post, for a first entry :)
While I admire your thoughts and believe that 5 years down the line.. i too would want to be doing something, which i truly want to do, there is a small little fact of life which believe it or not.. will effect your decisions.(Money.. money.. money.. its a rich man's world)
Just chose wisely, know your priorities, be the best at what you are - and you won't have a problem at all.
Never ever say your dreams are dead taneja boy, i forsee big things for you :)
- From one nikhil to another.
Well well, what do we have here.
Actually, the things that you say are very much true. How do we find the right path? I suppose the right path will find you, when you are ready to accept it. Till now it hasn't, because everyone looks around instead of looking in the mirror. How do you know yourself, if all you know is "what X is doing? or maybe, that Y is going to be a banker with $$ amount of money".
It is not a definition of your own self. It is a definition of others, that impose on yourself, because you haven't seen yourself. You use the existing knowledge of other people's models to sculpt yourself.
THAT my friend is bound to get you into confusion, and loads of it.
:)
Hope I make sense.
Oh and about the post, it was a good first post.
hey..
hmm...dats a bit of a thought provoking blog!...
never thot u would be thinking so much!..
getting 2 knw what we want 2 do in life is a TASK in itself.. once we knw dat more than half the work is done.
all the while we keep on jabbering abt so n so is in2 investment banking, so n so gt thru IIMA blah blah.... bt seriously, yaar, we cant help dis (as in tokin abt such ppl!)...
bt it dsnt mean we sit confused n dejected... all we can do is live for the moment n RELAXX .. hehe.. sory katri mightve wanted 2 say dis!
Mayb i dint completely understand the THOUGHT... mayb i will a year later :) ..
but a good piece of writing...
Thanks guys for appreciating it.... Have been thinking about this since long...Anyways...Busy with exams and all... Will write more stuff later....
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